Mike Gillis: coward
she was right there, standing right in front of me, blinking and blushing and smiling and sucking all the oxygen out of the room and crippling time and space and all i had to do, i had a fucking mouthful of beautiful words and all i had to do was spit them into her beautiful face and bam! the sun would rise, the birds would sing, all the evil would boil and twist and stray dogs would shit money in the streets until the end of time.
but i choked.
i stammered and retreated like a good for nothing coward.
and everyone saw.
and as i walked away meteors of shame rained down, crushing me.
i'd never get a second chance.
i was a tiny disgusting excuse for a man.
and i when i couldn't take it anymore i ducked behind a corner and dropped to my knees and i screamed those fucking words i've been dying to scream for so fucking long, letting it all pour out.
and then, i felt better.
because i realized those words in my mouth were not beautiful.
they were vomit.
and that could've been super embarrassing.
but i choked.
i stammered and retreated like a good for nothing coward.
and everyone saw.
and as i walked away meteors of shame rained down, crushing me.
i'd never get a second chance.
i was a tiny disgusting excuse for a man.
and i when i couldn't take it anymore i ducked behind a corner and dropped to my knees and i screamed those fucking words i've been dying to scream for so fucking long, letting it all pour out.
and then, i felt better.
because i realized those words in my mouth were not beautiful.
they were vomit.
and that could've been super embarrassing.
posted by mike | 8:20 PM
3 Comments:
there will be no neck kicking.
only mild shunting.
besides, this post was fiction.
i usually say things to girls like "hello tits!" or "woogie boogie!" or "smell the glove!"
cute thing like that.
shunting! i forgot about that movie. also, i finally saw and will soon play the warriors game. it's rad, especially when you get to beat the shit out of the police.
also: i watched an epiode of Sex and the City the other night and Ajax was in it! He looks so old.
kathryn
he is old.
and he's sick of that running crap.
also: Sex and the City?
gay.
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